Time to move on~*
As i've said, I have been a person who used blogger's services since 2004. And i have to say, i had fun being around here typing my random nonsensical posts.
Anyways, my new address will be at
http://boundariesofemptiness.wordpress.com/
The Boundary of my own Emptiness.
My own blog about the experiences i'm having and also about how i myself think. This is one of the only places in which i write almost anything and be true to myself~* In my little empty boundary filled with endless possibilities.
Monday, December 19, 2011
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
To tell the truth. . .
I have actually been feeling quite down recently.
Things that have yet to be done. So many things to read, so many things to write. Sights that have yet to be seen by me, people whom i have yet to become acquainted with. I wonder...
Before i continue on with my ramblings, please do note that this is not a plea for help nor something in which i want people to read. I just feel like writing it here as by writing here i would be able to at least take my mind off things...
3.43 AM is the time right now that i am using to start writing here. . .
I have been acting rather odd lately seeing that i still have yet to accomplish anything at the age of 18. (Which by the way was 4 days ago)... And so have i actually came up with something serious that i intend to finish it off. Actually there are five things that's the main priority in my list.
1. Which is to Finish off a Novella/Short story of some sort.
2. To be able to pass my whole Foundation year without any fails or anything on that line.
3. To find someone whom truly understands me.
4. To visit another Country(European) for the last holiday of my Bachelor's Degree.
and lastly,
5. To graduate My Bachelor's degree without looking back as if i wasted my university life doing absolutely nothing.
Being a cynical arse that i am, i doubt there are people who are able to truly gauge or even analyze what i think. But i do consider myself lazy, spineless, egocentric, piece of useless organic substance in which not even an angel could help. . . (As i've said... I'm in a major Depression episode)...
Another thing that may have actually contributed to my self-actualization of my depression may be due to the fact that i don't really feel close to any living person anymore. It's as though we are of different society which holds differing norms. Not accepting how i am as a person. They started to drift further apart. And i may even be the catalyst of this imminent break of their friendship.
In a way, i actually do have 3 circle of acquaintances in the University in which all three of the circles in my opinion is starting to blossom while leaving me. A tiny pod to rot in the very same soil that we were planted on. I myself wonder is this due to the fact that i may have wasted precious time that could have enhance our interpersonal relationship, rejecting events that may lead to us having stronger bond?
Apart from these things that has been bothering me, I actually am a little bit disgusted at myself for not studying efficiently since the starting of this week. The Examination is right around the corner and i am still procrastinating and enjoying my blissful life here in Kampar. Although constantly reminding myself to start revising, i have not been able to do until yesterday morning in which i went to the library to study... (It's 4.14 AM Now).
-More updates to follow soon . . .
Things that have yet to be done. So many things to read, so many things to write. Sights that have yet to be seen by me, people whom i have yet to become acquainted with. I wonder...
Before i continue on with my ramblings, please do note that this is not a plea for help nor something in which i want people to read. I just feel like writing it here as by writing here i would be able to at least take my mind off things...
3.43 AM is the time right now that i am using to start writing here. . .
I have been acting rather odd lately seeing that i still have yet to accomplish anything at the age of 18. (Which by the way was 4 days ago)... And so have i actually came up with something serious that i intend to finish it off. Actually there are five things that's the main priority in my list.
1. Which is to Finish off a Novella/Short story of some sort.
2. To be able to pass my whole Foundation year without any fails or anything on that line.
3. To find someone whom truly understands me.
4. To visit another Country(European) for the last holiday of my Bachelor's Degree.
and lastly,
5. To graduate My Bachelor's degree without looking back as if i wasted my university life doing absolutely nothing.
Being a cynical arse that i am, i doubt there are people who are able to truly gauge or even analyze what i think. But i do consider myself lazy, spineless, egocentric, piece of useless organic substance in which not even an angel could help. . . (As i've said... I'm in a major Depression episode)...
Another thing that may have actually contributed to my self-actualization of my depression may be due to the fact that i don't really feel close to any living person anymore. It's as though we are of different society which holds differing norms. Not accepting how i am as a person. They started to drift further apart. And i may even be the catalyst of this imminent break of their friendship.
In a way, i actually do have 3 circle of acquaintances in the University in which all three of the circles in my opinion is starting to blossom while leaving me. A tiny pod to rot in the very same soil that we were planted on. I myself wonder is this due to the fact that i may have wasted precious time that could have enhance our interpersonal relationship, rejecting events that may lead to us having stronger bond?
Apart from these things that has been bothering me, I actually am a little bit disgusted at myself for not studying efficiently since the starting of this week. The Examination is right around the corner and i am still procrastinating and enjoying my blissful life here in Kampar. Although constantly reminding myself to start revising, i have not been able to do until yesterday morning in which i went to the library to study... (It's 4.14 AM Now).
-More updates to follow soon . . .
Monday, December 12, 2011
Well~* Happy Belated Birthday to me~*
The cake is a lie. I never received any cakes for my birthday... (Forever Alone...)
But nevertheless I'm contented. Why?
1. I got to sleep in my own room.. (Not the kampar one)... I never liked the whether in Kampar and the only time i can really sleep is in an air-conditioned room....
2. Although I actually made a weird adjustment to facebook(In which my birthday's info was gone from facebook)... I still do have friends that remembers my birthday ^_^
3. Type-Moon Ace vol.7 is going to be MINE soon enough XDD Same goes for Fate/Extra CCC~Virgin White box set~[Limited Edition]
4. For now i've saved about 600$ in my Bank account... I've started to actually be cautious on my spendings for the trip that i'm planning on going during the Final semester of my Degree course.
5. I actually visited a clinic yesterday(A clinic that i've never been before). The nurse noticed that it was my Birthday and congratulated me ^_^ Same goes for the doctor~* *HAPPY*
You know what will make me a lot more happier? Being able to pass all of my Finals this semester~! Better start studying like hell now so that i won't suffer in the Fourth Semester =.=ll
But nevertheless I'm contented. Why?
1. I got to sleep in my own room.. (Not the kampar one)... I never liked the whether in Kampar and the only time i can really sleep is in an air-conditioned room....
2. Although I actually made a weird adjustment to facebook(In which my birthday's info was gone from facebook)... I still do have friends that remembers my birthday ^_^
3. Type-Moon Ace vol.7 is going to be MINE soon enough XDD Same goes for Fate/Extra CCC~Virgin White box set~[Limited Edition]
4. For now i've saved about 600$ in my Bank account... I've started to actually be cautious on my spendings for the trip that i'm planning on going during the Final semester of my Degree course.
5. I actually visited a clinic yesterday(A clinic that i've never been before). The nurse noticed that it was my Birthday and congratulated me ^_^ Same goes for the doctor~* *HAPPY*
You know what will make me a lot more happier? Being able to pass all of my Finals this semester~! Better start studying like hell now so that i won't suffer in the Fourth Semester =.=ll
Labels:
Birthday,
Myself,
University life
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Preparations for the last semester of Degree's trip to either Austria or Germany
Well, after thinking carefully, I've actually came up with an idea to either go vacation in Austria or Germany. In fact, that doesn't sound like a bad idea at all ^_^ Anyways, to do so, i'll have to save around 3.7k-4.7k++ for the AirTicket alone. For other expenses, i'll need at least another 4k++ Which means, i'll need a total of around 9-10k++ in total for the travel expenses + Food and Accommodation.
After calculating my monthly savings, i'll need to save around 250$ Per month + 50$(Emergency Money) which will leave me with another 300$ for my daily expenses. In which 300/30= 10$ Which means that i'll need to only use 10$ per day for the rest of my stay in Kampar. Which could be a feat that i may quit anytime =.=ll.... But still
One Bright side using this money saving method is that i'll be thinner in the matter of months.
After calculating my monthly savings, i'll need to save around 250$ Per month + 50$(Emergency Money) which will leave me with another 300$ for my daily expenses. In which 300/30= 10$ Which means that i'll need to only use 10$ per day for the rest of my stay in Kampar. Which could be a feat that i may quit anytime =.=ll.... But still
One Bright side using this money saving method is that i'll be thinner in the matter of months.
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Dream? part 1
Well, i just woke up from my dream...
In a perspective of another.(Gorgeous girl)
wearing a frilly reddish pink dress and a corsage with a white rose that could be noticed by everyone.
dancing in a ball where the character was invited. (Baroque-era like ballroom).
Then the character excused herself and went out of ball-room
Outside the hall was a magnificent garden in which there was even a maze. She kneeled down and tied the shoelaces of her shoe. its one of those pointe shoes but it covers the legs a little more... as people looks at the character, she blushes and started to feel dizzy( she was wearing a very tight corset) and gets to a fainting room...
i wonder if this'll continue~*
In a perspective of another.(Gorgeous girl)
wearing a frilly reddish pink dress and a corsage with a white rose that could be noticed by everyone.
dancing in a ball where the character was invited. (Baroque-era like ballroom).
Then the character excused herself and went out of ball-room
Outside the hall was a magnificent garden in which there was even a maze. She kneeled down and tied the shoelaces of her shoe. its one of those pointe shoes but it covers the legs a little more... as people looks at the character, she blushes and started to feel dizzy( she was wearing a very tight corset) and gets to a fainting room...
i wonder if this'll continue~*
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
. . .
I wonder what's with all the recent bad luck i'm having....
Firstly, as i was cycling on my way to the campus, my derailleur actually messed up and thanks to this... I may have to push my bike from Campus to Newtown =.=ll
Other than that, It's the Tests week and i'm not happy at all... Exam makes me stressful. Stress=Unhappy. Unhapy=Sad. Sad=Fail Tests. Fail Tests= Semster 4. Semster 4= Spend another 1k in my studies >_<. Fail again= Drop-out. Drop-out= Having a job which i can earn a lesser than average salary. Which will result in me being suicidal =.=ll
Anyways, Today= ECS, Tomorrow= Management and Friday it'll be Socialization as a Process.
Then on saturday i'll need to stay back in Kampar to finish off the outline and the first draft of the Academic English Assignment. My chosen topic= Child abuse
So in my case, i'll be researching on the Long-term Effects of Child Abuse on the Victims of Child Abuse.
I'll write my Introduction soon. As i'll also have to study the Heck out of ECS(Effective Communication Skills). Peace Out~!
Ps: Fate/Extra in English has been RELEASED~!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!! Now this great news makes me less stressful... Now all i need to do is to download the .iso first and then i'll wait till my Package from Playasia.com arrive to my doorstep and then i'll start playing it XD
Also, If You(My Brother) were to see this post.. PLEASE DO NOT OPEN THE PACKAGING. NO OPENDO PACKAGEO Comprende? ^_^
Firstly, as i was cycling on my way to the campus, my derailleur actually messed up and thanks to this... I may have to push my bike from Campus to Newtown =.=ll
Other than that, It's the Tests week and i'm not happy at all... Exam makes me stressful. Stress=Unhappy. Unhapy=Sad. Sad=Fail Tests. Fail Tests= Semster 4. Semster 4= Spend another 1k in my studies >_<. Fail again= Drop-out. Drop-out= Having a job which i can earn a lesser than average salary. Which will result in me being suicidal =.=ll
Anyways, Today= ECS, Tomorrow= Management and Friday it'll be Socialization as a Process.
Then on saturday i'll need to stay back in Kampar to finish off the outline and the first draft of the Academic English Assignment. My chosen topic= Child abuse
So in my case, i'll be researching on the Long-term Effects of Child Abuse on the Victims of Child Abuse.
I'll write my Introduction soon. As i'll also have to study the Heck out of ECS(Effective Communication Skills). Peace Out~!
Ps: Fate/Extra in English has been RELEASED~!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!! Now this great news makes me less stressful... Now all i need to do is to download the .iso first and then i'll wait till my Package from Playasia.com arrive to my doorstep and then i'll start playing it XD
Also, If You(My Brother) were to see this post.. PLEASE DO NOT OPEN THE PACKAGING. NO OPENDO PACKAGEO Comprende? ^_^
Friday, October 28, 2011
Slow UTAR library comupter is as slow as heck....
http://scholar.google.com/scholar?q=child+abuse&hl=en&as_sdt=1%2C5&as_sdtp=on
http://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/014521349290011F http://journalseek.net/cgi-bin/journalseek/journalsearch.cgi?field=category&query=psyc.childabuse
http://www.prevent-abuse-now.com/stats.htm
http://www.thefreedictionary.com/Child+abuse
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Child_sexual_abuse
http://childabuse.com/
http://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/0145213483900704
http://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/0145213494900264
http://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0962184905800551
http://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/014521349190038F
Outline
Topic: Child Abuse
Controlling Idea: Longterm and Short-term effects of said topic.
Points:
1.
2.
3.
Conclusion
Sources found= Online articles,
Miin's Section!!!
Greenhouse Effect is one of the leading causes of Global warming in recent times. It has been researched and analyzed greatly during this century. This paper details the primary causes of Greenhouse effect from industrial sectors in which will affect our Environment Greatly.
One of the primary cause of the Greenouse Effect is the burning of fossil fuels, oil and also gases which produces the Greenhouse Gases(Abbreviated as GSG). These gases traps the heat energy emitted by the Sun. These emissions of the Sun which will be trapped by the GSG will not be able to disperse back into space as easily. When this happens, the warmed air will radiate energy that cause the Earth to stay warm.
Another cause
http://www.buzzle.com/articles/causes-greenhouse-effect.html
http://www.aip.org/history/climate/co2.htm
http://scholar.google.com/scholar?q=child+abuse&hl=en&as_sdt=1%2C5&as_sdtp=on
http://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/014521349290011F http://journalseek.net/cgi-bin/journalseek/journalsearch.cgi?field=category&query=psyc.childabuse
http://www.prevent-abuse-now.com/stats.htm
http://www.thefreedictionary.com/Child+abuse
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Child_sexual_abuse
http://childabuse.com/
http://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/0145213483900704
http://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/0145213494900264
http://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0962184905800551
http://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/014521349190038F
Outline
Topic: Child Abuse
Controlling Idea: Longterm and Short-term effects of said topic.
Points:
1.
2.
3.
Conclusion
Sources found= Online articles,
Miin's Section!!!
Greenhouse Effect is one of the leading causes of Global warming in recent times. It has been researched and analyzed greatly during this century. This paper details the primary causes of Greenhouse effect from industrial sectors in which will affect our Environment Greatly.
One of the primary cause of the Greenouse Effect is the burning of fossil fuels, oil and also gases which produces the Greenhouse Gases(Abbreviated as GSG). These gases traps the heat energy emitted by the Sun. These emissions of the Sun which will be trapped by the GSG will not be able to disperse back into space as easily. When this happens, the warmed air will radiate energy that cause the Earth to stay warm.
Another cause
http://www.buzzle.com/articles/causes-greenhouse-effect.html
http://www.aip.org/history/climate/co2.htm
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